MY STORY | THE FIRST MISCARRIAGE

Studies reveal that around 10 to 20 percent of known pregnancies end in miscarriages, and more than 80 percent of these losses happen before 12 weeks.

The day I went in for a regular check up on week 10, I found out that my baby had no heart beat. I was completely devastated, and after seeing my husband’s face, I knew it hit him just as bad. I kept thinking all that we had gone through to get pregnant, and all of the sudden we were back to square 1.

The doctor recommend to get a Dilation and Curettage at that time, which was exactly what I wanted, as I could not bear the feeling of having a baby inside of me without a heart beat.

Why did it happened to me? Did I do something wrong? Why is it so difficult for me to have babies and so easy for my friends? Those were some of the questions that where going through my mind.

I usually get what I want, when I want, and for the first time in my life my objective seemed impossible to achieve.

I was in so much mental pain that It took me a long time to heal and learn from this episode, it has definitely been the hardest thing that I’ve had ever gone through in my life.

One day I just got up from bed and told my self to snap out of it, that my main goal was to become a mother and that I had to do anything and everything to achieve my objective. It was impossible to be successful by laying in bed or getting sad every time I thought about this horrible event. I learned to be patient and trust the timing of life, as everything happens for a reason.

I realized that I needed the right mind set if I ever wanted to do In Vitro again. So I took a couple of months off from the fertility treatments, got healthy and prepared my body for all of the hormones that I was going to have to take again. I started eating properly and exercised a lot to get endorphins back in my body. After a couple of months I decided to take a relaxing vacation to finalize the healing process, and went on a cruise with my whole family.

Finally I learned how to be happy again and was ready to re-try In Vitro…