Studies reveal that around 10 to 20 percent of known pregnancies end in miscarriages, and more than 80 percent of these losses happen before 12 weeks.
The day I went in for a regular check up on week 10, I found out that my baby had no heart beat. I was completely devastated, and after seeing my husband’s face, I knew it hit him just as bad. I kept thinking all that we had gone through to get pregnant, and all of the sudden we were back to square 1.
The doctor recommend to get a Dilation and Curettage at that time, which was exactly what I wanted, as I could not bear the feeling of having a baby inside of me without a heart beat.
Why did it happened to me? Did I do something wrong? Why is it so difficult for me to have babies and so easy for my friends? Those were some of the questions that where going through my mind.
I usually get what I want, when I want, and for the first time in my life my objective seemed impossible to achieve.
I was in so much mental pain that It took me a long time to heal and learn from this episode, it has definitely been the hardest thing that I’ve had ever gone through in my life.
One day I just got up from bed and told my self to snap out of it, that my main goal was to become a mother and that I had to do anything and everything to achieve my objective. It was impossible to be successful by laying in bed or getting sad every time I thought about this horrible event. I learned to be patient and trust the timing of life, as everything happens for a reason.
I realized that I needed the right mind set if I ever wanted to do In Vitro again. So I took a couple of months off from the fertility treatments, got healthy and prepared my body for all of the hormones that I was going to have to take again. I started eating properly and exercised a lot to get endorphins back in my body. After a couple of months I decided to take a relaxing vacation to finalize the healing process, and went on a cruise with my whole family.
Finally I learned how to be happy again and was ready to re-try In Vitro…